Annddd this part is the most i hate very very much. This moment. This situation. This feeling. I have feel it everytime when i have a closed friend. I should not have a closed friend. I shouldn't. Bila dah ada kawan yang rapat, dan sampai satu masa we are no longer did what we have done our routine, semua tu akan buat hati aku sendiri yang rosak. Habis perasaan aku macam ni. This a 3rd times i have a very closed friend and it just end like a shit. Kenapa bila berkawan mesti ada penghujungnya? Kenapa kawan tu tak everlasting. Tak perlu ramai kawan. Cukuplah sorang. Tapi kalau sorang pun takde, its okay. I can live on my own. i used to it. How i miss my primary school life. Alone. No friends. No heartbreak. Just me and my life. I create my own happiness. No distraction from others. No crying. People only talk to me about the important thing. Like umi have said, i cannot have a life like that. Friends are important at my age now. But who will be my friend? Who can be my everlasting friends? This is very sad week. Minggu ni jangan ada salah sikit. Senang je air mata ni nak mengalir.This week i will start doing all by myself. And it will be go on forever! Rasa serik berkawan. And hoping no more closed friends after this. Perasaan aku ni biarlah aku saja yang jaga. Aku pun tak pandai jaga hati orang lain. Siapa jadi kawan rapat aku dia akan suffer a lot. Tak percaya? Just ask my previous friends. Hilang tempat mengadu? Takpe. Aku boleh mengadu pada diri aku sendiri.  Nak mengadu pada umi? Tak boleh. Already 21 i should have my own tempat mengadu. Menangis? macam mana nak kurangkan menangis? Banyak sangat aku menangis. Sedih bila hilang kawan yang paling rapat. Kawan yang paling aku rapat sepanjang hidup. Kawan yang paling aku sayang sebenarnya. But now its over. Just like that. Sepatutnya our friend should be everlasting friendship. Dia rasa rimas dengan aku. Aku tahu. Dia hanya nak privacy dalam hidup dia. Bila ada aku, dia langsung takde privacy dalam hidup dia.Kesian. Takpe aku faham walaupun aku sedih. Kau bualah keputusan yang paling baik untuk kau. Jangan fikirkan aku lagi. Aku akan sentiasa anggap kau adalah sebahagian daripada hidup aku. You're my best friend ever. Thanks safwa for everything. Thankyou very very much. I appreaciate every moment when you waste your time for me. Sorry for wasting a lot of your time. Sorry. Jaga kesihatan kau. Take you meal. Jangan sedih-sedih selalu. Jangan marah-marah. Gembira-gembiralah selalu. hopefully have a good ending with amad. I always hoping all the best for you. kbai!